This is one of my favorite pictures. It was the morning of Katie’s church Christening (Vickie and I had no idea there was a picture being taken, but our little Diva was posing away!). I certainly knew then that we had to take advantage of every moment together, but I never thought that I’d be sitting here tonight marking the 6th month since my daughter passed away.
Today was made tolerable by staying close to my wife and keeping busy. However, as day turned into night, my emotions became more difficult to cope with. As my wife went off to bed, there was only one thing for me to do…I grabbed my ball and my ipod and off I went to a floodlit court. 23 years since I first played the game and still a simple game of basketball can provide comfort. Sometimes solitude is all you need to gain the strength to move on…
Tomorrow is Mother’s Day (almost today). I can’t go into the depths of how it upsets me to know that Vickie won’t be able to celebrate the day with Katie. I just got back from my hoop-therapy, and I don’t want all of the work to be undone. Just know that tomorrow is Mother’s Day. Vickie was, is, and always will be a mother. She is the mother of my daughter, and a wonderful mother at that. To this day Vickie is as much a mother as she was when Katie was here. I know she still thinks about her baby first. I know she’d sacrifice anything for our daughter. Vickie is a mother. Tomorrow is her day.
May 10, 2009 at 12:35 am
Happy Mothes Day Vickie
May 10, 2009 at 7:17 am
Happy Mother’s Day
May 10, 2009 at 9:17 am
Happy Mother’s Day…for all the wonderful, loving moments you spent with Katie, and for all the smiles she shared with you…that’s what being a mother is all about.
Prayers of comfort for Vickie, grandmas and aunts…all special women in Katie’s life.
May 10, 2009 at 3:45 pm
Happy Mothers Day Vicky!!!
May 10, 2009 at 5:11 pm
thinking of you, your family….expecially Vickie and Grandma’s,,,,,,,prayers, Dawn’s Mom
May 10, 2009 at 9:27 pm
vickie… to quote oprah.. “this is what i know to be true…”
once you give birth, you belong to a community of women who know that joy and pain are intermingled. the gummy smile that brings such a burst of joyfulness also has a little silent tug. a mother knows that anything this magical and precious can’t last… babies grow each and every minute of the day. every second is fleeting, and on a subconsious level, we feel it. we can’t make time stop, we can’t physically grab the moment, but we can catalouge these moments in our mental flie cabinet under ” “heartstrings”. we can recall these snipits when life is moving too quickly and our children are moving away from us. for you vickie, these snipits and precious moments were many but then again, just too few. your mental filebox is overflowing, but there was still room for so much more.
i know this to be true… this is not your “first” mother’s day… i am sure that you know your mother’s day was the day you delivered katie, and each and every day you live will be mother’s day because you gave birth. you experienced what a mother’s love is. unconditional and everlasting.
so vickie i share this day with you. i can only admire the way you and alan have chosen to love your daughter while she was here with us, and also now as you continue to share your love and genrosity in her memory. if you were to look up mother on the web there would be a picture of you and right next to it would be the word love with alan’s picture next to it. and the next word would be family and both of you would be there with katie’s liitle face between you. happy( hallmark) mother’s day. you are the mother the sentiments were written about on all those cards that were given today…
(wait until father’s day ,alan… i will have to start now to think about what i will post on THAT hallmark day)
May 18, 2009 at 10:36 am
thinking of you and your family, a difficult week…….Dawn’s Mom